Aasiyah Rising.

Micropoetic #99

2012-02-24T18:36:00.000-08:00

I always feel calm with your kisses on my forehead.

***

Of panic,
Of calm,
I wish your lips were as close
As the mouth of this teacup.

***

Time will stop when our eyes meet.
Heartbeats won't race with seconds anymore.

Micropoetic #100

2012-02-24T18:27:00.002-08:00

My lovely flower
On the sofa sleeping.
I'm home.
I'm staying.

***

You like me clumsy.
I like your laugh.
Do it again,
Can't get enough.

***

Black balloons in the sky
Drifting as slowly
As how time should fly by.

Kabhi kabhi mere dil main khayal aata hain

2012-02-21T09:03:00.000-08:00

Kabhi kabhi mere dil main khayal aata hain
Ki zindagi teri zulfon ki narm chhaon main guzarne pati
To shadab ho bhi sakti thi.

Quite often a thought comes to mind
That if I could live my life in the shadows of your hair
Then there would have been peace.

Yeh ranj-o-gham ki siyahi jo dil pe chhayi hain
Teri nazar ki shuaon main kho bhi sakti thi.

This touch of pain and sorrow that dwells in my heart
Could have been lost in the depth of your eyes.

Magar yeh ho na saka,
Magar yeh ho na saka aur ab ye aalam hain
Ki tu nahin, tera gham, teri joostjoo bhi nahin.

But it could not happen,
But it couldn't happen and now the time has come
That you are not here, nor your grief nor the hope of you.

Guzar rahi hain kuchh iss tarah zindagi jaise,
Isse kisi ke sahare ki aarzoo bhi nahin.

My life is passing by in such a way that
It does not expect any support from anyone.

Na koi raah, na manzil, na roshni ka suragh
Bhatak rahin hai andheron mein zindagi meri.

There is no path, no goal, nor any signs of light
My life meanders around in darkness.

Inhi andheron main reh jaonga kabhi kho kar
Main janta hoon meri hum-nafas, magar yoonhi
Kabhi kabhi mere dil main khayal aata hain.

Someday I will get lost in this darkness
I know it my love of life, but still
Quite often a thought comes to mind.

*Film: Kabhi Kabhi (1976)
**Translation: Hindi Lyrics Forum

Wiz Khalifa says:

2012-02-13T19:03:00.000-08:00

... It's an ordinary day, just a bit more scarlet than the usual. I'm still alive y'all.

Nothing is beautiful anymore.

2011-10-29T03:33:00.000-07:00

It used to be that every little thing reminded you of him, and you were happy even if he was far away. But now, you have to deactivate your twitter account, move to a new apartment and cut your 24/7 internet connection because that and everything else makes you cry. You can't figure out why he left when you showed him everything you are - both pretty and ugly. You have too many questions that he is unwilling to answer - much less show whether he really cares or not. You see him acting like nothing's wrong and it pierces you all the more because it makes you think that what you had with him did not leave an impression on him, that it was shallow, forgettable and cheap. And that hurts because when he said he loved you, you thought he meant it. You thought it was going to last more than your anxieties thought it would. And you took it seriously. And just like every love story you've been in, when you said you were tired about him ignoring you, he didn't even ask you to stay, didn't even ask about how you're doing in the days that followed. When your friends do the same thing, their lovers ask them to stay and everything gets better for them. You begin wondering whether you're really someone who cannot be taken seriously or you're just a plaything that should be get rid of when the fun's over. Are you really that insignificant? You think you yourself are not worth any ounce of happiness because you feel you're ugly and boring and all the other adjectives that hurt like stones thrown at you. Suddenly, you've stopped smiling. You stopped looking at the mirror too. Everything begins to lose its meaning until all you know is the irregular beating of your heart that pushes your ducts to cry every night. That's all you know, because at the end of the day, these tears are all you're with. No one. Not him. Not even your once happy self.

Byki Urdu Flashcard #002

2011-10-28T04:44:00.000-07:00

1. Aap merii maddad kar saktay haiN? - Can you help me?
2. ___ kaa kiaa raastaa hai? - How to get to ___?
3. MaiN amriikii hooN. - I am American.
4. MaiN ___ chahta hooN. - I would like ___.
5. Muttahidah riyaasat-haa-e aamariikah. - United States of America
6. Aur - and
7. Qehvah khaanah - cafe
8. Rukh - direction
9. Ajaaib gahr - museum

Meanwhile, on Facebook

2011-10-21T09:07:00.000-07:00

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, ...for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend:You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened..

Toy Convention

2011-10-18T22:19:00.000-07:00

Held at the Gaisano Mall of Davao, May 2011.

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21 more photos here.

Bibi Sanam Janem

2011-10-14T14:14:00.000-07:00

The following are old and new renditions of this lovely Dari (along with Pashto, it is one of Afghanistan's official languages; it is also called the Afghan Persian) song.

Bibi sanam janem anaar-i-seestaanam

Adored lady, my love, my sweet pomegranate from Sistan

Ba darwaazah-i taaj-qurghaan jaa-i sanam janem

Your being borders on the divine, my love

Kase harf-i dil-i ma ra nadaanist

What I feel for you, no one is privy to it

Bahaa-i mahfil-i ma ra nadaanist

No one can fathom the depths or value this love

Bajuz toofan kase dar shahr-i ghurbat

The wild storms crashing down on strange, distant cities

Nishaan-i mahfil-i ma ra nadaanist

Only they know the true worth of our love

Name-khaaham kih betaabat bibeenam

Not ever would I want you to be sad

Dilam khaahad kih shaadaabat bibeenam

All I ever need is that you be happy and content

Nadeedam man bah bedaari rukhat ra

Even if all the flowers in the world wilt and wither away

Magar hamchu pari khaabat bibeenam

That love I have for you in my heart will not fade

Dil-i naazuktar az andeshah daaram

What my heart feels is far mellower than my thoughts

Hawaa-i mu'tadil chun reshah daaram

There will never be a moment when I won't yearn for you

Hamah gulhaa-i aalaam gar bekhushkad

Believe me, your love is deeply rooted in my heart

Tu dar baagh-i khayaalam reshah dari

Even if all the flowers in the world wither

Reminders for you and me.

2011-10-13T00:28:00.000-07:00

To persecute a people because of their belief is hypocrisy. Our religion, in its Golden Age, was known for its tolerance for every color and creed. Multiculturalism at its finest. There is no compulsion in religion, remember? But, what has become of our Ummah? I am not an Ahmadi but I am against those who discriminate them.

How are we different from the so-called 'West' we have been constantly blaming for our present condition, when we shove our ideology down people's throats too? Different ways, same story.

And to those who turn a blind eye on the real issues of the Muslim Ummah, what is the point of being a Muslim when you're not in a state of Jihad? Ignorance was never bliss for the true Muslim, as Seeking Knowledge is our first and foremost responsibility.

We have become lazy and indulgent. We are missing out a great deal on the magnificence of our Deen because we do not take time to read, to know, to dig deeper. Hence, we do not know how utterly fortunate we are being in Allah's SWT Mercy. The idea of Jannah and Jahannum is not as real to us as it should be. As Imam Anwar al-Awlaki put it, we fear death because we have built our mansions in the dunya but nil in Jannah. This is our loss. Allah ta'ala can replace us anytime. His Greatness will not be lessened by our lack in worship.